Lighter and lighter

lately I've dropped a few things

Letting go of something often makes an image fall out of the end of my paintbrush. Sometimes it comes from a dream. ‘And That Was The Weight’ , water colour and gouache on paper (14.85 x 21cm)

Lighter and Lighter

Lately:

i’ve dropped a few things

shoulds

oughts

labels

obligation

ownership

yesterday’s encroachment

tomorrow’s predicament

opinion

analysis

(gin)

habitual responses

rushing

thinking i’m in control

the veil

sometimes I have picked up those things once again

without noticing

(so used, am i to carrying them).

But then I notice the load on my body

and just like that I drop something again.

alternatively I put it in a weighty bag

and carry it round

walking lop-sided

breathing shallow

waking at 3.

tripping up over the nonsense

- until I listen in and remember the veil the self often wears

to dance under

until it’s too weighty.

Its divestment is lightenment

and the dropping begins again.

lighter and lighter

Lately: i have dropped a few things

loosened the grip

watched

and joined with something

much, much lighter

and danced with the veil,

peaking through its threads

Lately: i have dropped the veil

and that was the weight.

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